Keep Going

Hello!

It has been a while since I wrote. Sometimes, It is hard to come up with the right way to convey what is on my mind. I ended my last post talking about how I got to school and me finally taking a big first step toward my dream. I remember I almost waited to attend school, there was a new program starting the last week in August or I could wait for the next one in January. My best friend and room mate at the time asked me a simple question. He said "Why would you sit around and wait for something when you can literally start doing what you love right away?" He was right. I have a bad procrastination problem. Sometimes it is wise to be cautious and guarded about the moves we make, while other times it is for the best to just dive in headfirst. I needed to stop waiting around to follow my dreams. Just like now, I need to stop waiting around to be happy again.

I will talk more about school and audio later, but I want to just take a moment to explain a realization that happened to me this week. I had been having trouble being able to come up with the right wording for what I wanted to keep writing about. I started writing a few posts, but then decided it wasn't time for those thoughts and feelings quite yet or even if I wanted to share certain things. In life, much like the elevator business, there are definitely ups and downs. But it was shown to me today how one simple act can completely turn your perspective around. I had been having a rough past few days. I was a wreck and trapped in my head with dark thoughts and I just felt terrible. I was watching How I Met Your Mother when it got to the point in the show where Marshall's fiance had left him to pursue her dream of going to art school. He was a wreck, he didn't do anything he used to do and finally Ted yells at him how pathetic he is. It kind of hit home for me. I didn't want to end up like Marshall did, months later still moping around the house. But just like him, I felt those same feelings of loss, and the pain that comes with it. I have talked to my close friends and family and each person that I have talked to has given me great encouragement and support. But still, when the conversation ended, and I was left to be alone with my thoughts, I didn't like what I was hearing.

I woke up today in a better mood today and was trying to figure out what to do with my day when I got a text message. Quick side note, Minus the Bear is probably my favorite band of all time. I first discovered them when I was in high school. My friend showed me a few of their songs, and at first I wasn't too into them. After going to see them live, I was hooked. I had never seen a band so well connected with each other and put on such a flawless performance. Their music has always reached me on a deeper level. I became sort of obsessed, listening to all of their songs and albums. They always seem to meet me right where I'm at. More on some of their shows I've been to and this amazing band later. Anyways, a friend had found an album of theirs on vinyl that I have been trying to find for a long time and thought of me and bought it for me. Now I only need a few more to complete my collection! I love how something so small completely turned my day around. One simple, kind act is all it took. Thank you. You know who you are. I have so many things I want to accomplish. I want to write about many topics and tell you some of the many stories. I have. I don't know what order I am going to tell you all of these things, but if you want get to know me and my thoughts more, you are just going to have to keep reading.

I will end this post with the following thought. We all have a choice in how we deal with situations. I for one and going to do my best to hold my head up, despite how low I want to hang it sometimes. I will try to be more positive, even if it is just a little bit more each day. To those of you who are struggling too, I urge you to do the same. As hard as it is to do so, look on the bright side of life. I know how hard it is to try to be happy when all you want to do is wallow in self pity . But sometimes, when we least expect it, we are shown the right thing at the right time. Keep going! Never stop waiting for your time, one day, it will come.