Beginning

Hello to all who have decided to read my blog.

On here, I will be honest, open and tell it exactly how it is. I may bring up some tough things since it is an emotional time for me. I hope that you are a close friend or family member or much of this won't make sense. If you are not, I will try to explain the situation as best as I can.
I have never blogged before so forgive me if this is not the norm. Writing has always been a strong way for me to really gather all the thoughts and emotions in my head and make sense of them. So, naturally, I thought this was a great way to start something new, and get some of those thoughts out of my head. Let's begin, shall we?

Where to begin? There is so much going on in my life right now. Let's start with where I am now. Physically, I am located in Eugene, Oregon. I love it here! There is so much beauty all around me it's almost too much. I just got my own place. My first place to have things exactly where I want them, not having to share space with anyone else (except my dog, Yogi) is kind of nice. I have never had that before so that is exciting! I am working full time as a Maintenance Technician at a student housing complex here. I love what I do. I fix things all day and really have learned a ton and made some awesome new friends in the process. Service with a smile!

Emotionally, to be honest I'm a wreck. I was, up until a few days ago, happily engaged to what I thought was the love of my life. I was so incredibly happy with her despite our challenges. She has brought so much joy into my life and I have spent some of the best moments of my life by her side. To make a long story very short, things didn't work out. I will leave the details regarding why out of the picture. Stop being nosy! Haha, just kidding, but if you would like to know more about my situation you can always send me a private message on Facebook or to my email address, nathan.dorsey07@gmail.com

Anyways, let us move on from that topic. I labeled this post "Beginning" because I am just starting the next chapter in my life. I am doing my best to remain positive and optimistic about the future. God, is that hard. Isn't it strange how one day, you can wake up in one mindset and by sundown, you are on a completely different track? I don't mean the obvious, wake up, get ready vs, clean up the house, go to bed mindset. I am talking lifestyle. Take me for example, two weeks ago tomorrow, I woke up and I was engaged to be married to a lovely woman, and by the time I went to bed that night, I knew things were going to end. This is extremely difficult to write as I am still processing all of my emotions and thoughts literally as I write, so bear with me.

My mindset now is, what can I do today that will better myself and Yogi tomorrow? Where as before, it was what can I do today that will not only benefit me and the dog, but her as well. How can I be a better man for her today? What little thing could I do that hopefully she will notice and smile? Now she is gone, not from this world or from my life completely, but gone enough to hurt. I have done a lot of soul searching these last two weeks and this is what I have decided to do. Among many other things, I am going to write! And explore, go on adventures, meet new people, take time out of my day to make someone smile. I will work hard (that's never been a problem for me, thanks dad!) I will strive every day to be better than I was yesterday. It may take me some time, but I will get there. I have also decided to get back in shape, I know I've said this before, but now I really mean it. No more excuses. If you are reading this and know of anything I can do to start slowly and build up a routine, please comment below or send me a message! Besides that, I also want to dive into Audio again. That is a true passion of mine that I have put on the back burner and now regret. I am currently volunteering at a church up here called Ekklesia. Google Ekklesia Eugene if you are in the area (or just curious) and want to check out an awesome church! You can find me there on Sunday mornings from 6am on. I will share my adventures, encounters and a lot more on here in the future. Stay tuned.

Wow, this is all over the place, but this is what I need, and to be completely honest I'm doing this more for me than I am for you. But, if you feel like engaging your brain and trying to understand me and my thought process more, feel free. I am an open book, A very long book that will probably bore you, but its my damn book anyways. :) Check this often, as I will try to write at least once a week, but hopefully more. Yogi is begging me to take him for a walk so this is all for tonight.

I will end this first post with a scripture that has become my life motto.
Joshua 1:9 "I will be Strong and Courageous, I will not be terrified or discouraged for I know that the Lord, my God, is with me wherever I go."