Miles

Hello again!

What an exhausting last couple months it has been for me. I have traveled just about 7,000 miles in the past 3 months. Although it has been an adventure, it has also been draining. The best part of my adventure has been seeing so many of my amazing friends from my past. I was able to reconnect with people I hadn't seen in years and some that had only been 2 years too long. To all of you that I have met up with recently, thank you, so incredibly much. There are no words to describe how your support, encouragement and positive feedback has tremendously helped me. I also was able to burn a few old bridges from one of the people I respect the most in this world, to you, sir, I say thank you. For always being there for me even when our friendship was rocky, for knowing my deepest and darkest secrets and still giving me support and nothing but positive reinforcement. Your friendship means the world to me and I am so proud of you and the man you have become. And to all my other friends that have stood by my side and been on the other end far too often of my seemingly endless venting, and for giving me so much wisdom, you guys have all made me who I am today and I am so grateful to have such awesome people in my life.

There is something about traveling that always tends to make me think about so many deep things. It sounds cliche' but it is true. I spent so much time thinking about the people in my life, the mistakes I have made, the friendships I have established, and the events that have led me to where I am now. And what I realized, is that as much as I have gone through, one thing will always remain the same. I am human. I make mistakes. And I learn from them. I have unintentionally hurt some of the most amazing people in my life. Although I still never regret any of those things I messed up, I can't help but wish I had known then what I do know. They say hindsight is a beautiful thing, and I agree, however I know that even if I could change certain events in the past, I wouldn't. For they led me to where I am and have made me into the man I am, So, as I look toward the future, I can't help but feel optimistic. I know that I will keep making mistakes, keep learning from them, and keep on keeping on.

This is my first post in Arizona. It feels strange to be here, I have been looking forward to this for the past few months and now it feels surreal. I was able to land a job almost immediately. While I am grateful, I can't help but feel like in some ways I have taken a few steps back. I know it is just a starting point, but I know I am meant for more. I am excited about paving my new path here, but once again, I am in yet another new place, with only a few people I know here. After my nightmare in Eugene, I have to admit I am a bit apprehensive. I am starting from scratch once again. Only this time, I am not trying to focus on anyone but myself. But it is unfamiliar, I haven't done this before so I feel like the new kid on the block, trying to make new friends, and do what I need to do for me. Wish me luck, as I have a lot to do. More to come!